I sense within me a desire to call out my partner, my "Soul Mate" for not allowing me the spaceI need and the freedom necessary for me to love myself. The diversion of his unhappines, destracting me, becoming" my unhappiness" for myself. Hindering me from blossoming. I am in a constant state of self assessment, I am constantly oscillating between acting out of reaction to his assertions, feeling the effect of his feelings/thoughts/emotions/desires/against and for me and recommitting to the recollection of who I am through relentless self assessment.
Then I ask myself: Does he love himself?
Does it also work in order to be loved one must love themselves? For not first knowing love for self how can they know if what they are receiving from another is a worthy love?
